Blessing in disguise
///LESSON
The greatest thing about hardship is that you come out of it a much stronger person than you were before. The greater the hardship, the greater the growth. I suppose you could always look at the growth as the light at the end of the tunnel in times of despair. One of the greatest things that happened to me was having a life of luxury and then being thrown down into economic hardship. I could see myself becoming a spoiled little punk had this not happened. Having everything just given to me instead of earned. There's a different feeling when you buy something with your own money you earned. Makes you appreciate the things you buy and makes you cut through the bullshit of what you don't need.
The best lesson I got out of it is that I realized that money won't buy me happiness. Only finding my own true happiness will. Money is just a tool that should aid you and should not be viewed as a means to an end. I'll teach my kids to be humble and not flaunt their wealth should they ever achieve it. I have the utmost respect for people who make mad money and live humbly. If I had money, I wouldn't need the flashy things at all.
I have a pretty good vision of what will make me the happiest. Achieving it is another thing. I sometimes wonder if I would flaunt my money if I had it. I'll be figuring that out soon enough while the cash flow from work starts to pour in. At least I know I don't have an overwhelming desire for brand names. Lost a pair of Ray Bans and I could really care less. The only thing I'm worried about is my sister getting angry at me for losing it.
Also, I wouldn't give my car up for anything, except for the same car but in better condition. I think it fits me perfectly. I love the low profile of it. It's got a sunroof, AC, heated seats, and even my god damn headlights got wipers. Big ass trunk space. I dream of the day when I can just have a week off to just go on a road trip with my car. It will be epic. I will live in it. I will bathe in it. I will... poop in it. No, nevermind. I will poop next to it. If my car had a soul, I would hug it. I think I'm in love with my car hahahaahahaa. Even if it smells like gas. All the things that make it different make it more unique in my eyes. I guess that goes the same for people if I think about it. I love being different and I love people that are different. I feel like its in my nature to be different.
I secretly love to flaunt my modesty. I'll throw out little lines at people to make them feel bad for wanting random shit. It's kind of bad that I do that. But this is where I wallow. It's for the better in a way. Straying away from brand names lets you personalize yourself more anyway. A better expression of who you are. I want people to get out of wanting brand name stuff. Especially cars and houses. Two of the most bullshit luxury items out there.
I think I'm using the word love too much... I'm feeling feminine. But I do love my car.
I need to start waking up earlier to take advantage of the crisp morning air. Walk my dog and learn to ride my longboard. I will start this next week.
After seeing that I can handle being manager at a restaurant. I feel like I can do anything. I've always felt like my potential was limitless. I just need to find my passion. Where are you passion? Where is my Personal Legend!!!!
Should I patiently wait or should I set forth and take action. I've never been the one to take action.
I feel lucky when I decide to stay up and my stomach starts to hurt like crazy. Waking up to intense stomach pain is not fun. I always roll around hoping it will go away or I will fall asleep. Neither happens. I sit in a daze in the middle of the night with the lights beaming at me.
Every stranger is so interesting when you realize that each of them has such a deep and vast history in their life. I want to go up to every adult I see and ask them if they've found it. If not, I would try to reignite their search. That would be fun. If only my personality didn't put up such barriers of communication. All that stops me from my potential is me. Frustrating when it's in my power but I choose not to.
It's interesting the way I analyze human behavior now. I can see how certain actions create certain responses. I feel like I almost have a power to manipulate people into doing things a lot better than I used to be able to. It's kind of scary. I mostly manipulate people to make them happier which is fun. Of course, when I'm in a shitty mood things just go to hell. I try to exude happiness, energy, and a hard-working aura at work and I can see everyone else working hard. This may either be because I think everyone is working hard, but I think it's because they see me working hard so they subconsciously work hard as well. If I slack, they slack. This is amplified by the fact that I'm the manager and that I am the role model who sets the bar. I consciously try to do things in a way so that it leaves people happy and work in an efficient manner. Inefficiency is one thing that will get me angry. Waste my time, waste the worker's time. My hosts...... I am scared for the busy season because of them. None of them have seen busy. We must prepare for busy season in a war-like manner. It won't be easy. FIGHTING
I think Lucy made me think a lot more than usual. Which in turn makes me more aware of every moment. Simple evidence is in just how much I've been blogging since the summer. I want to pick someone else's brain...
The greatest thing about hardship is that you come out of it a much stronger person than you were before. The greater the hardship, the greater the growth. I suppose you could always look at the growth as the light at the end of the tunnel in times of despair. One of the greatest things that happened to me was having a life of luxury and then being thrown down into economic hardship. I could see myself becoming a spoiled little punk had this not happened. Having everything just given to me instead of earned. There's a different feeling when you buy something with your own money you earned. Makes you appreciate the things you buy and makes you cut through the bullshit of what you don't need.
The best lesson I got out of it is that I realized that money won't buy me happiness. Only finding my own true happiness will. Money is just a tool that should aid you and should not be viewed as a means to an end. I'll teach my kids to be humble and not flaunt their wealth should they ever achieve it. I have the utmost respect for people who make mad money and live humbly. If I had money, I wouldn't need the flashy things at all.
I have a pretty good vision of what will make me the happiest. Achieving it is another thing. I sometimes wonder if I would flaunt my money if I had it. I'll be figuring that out soon enough while the cash flow from work starts to pour in. At least I know I don't have an overwhelming desire for brand names. Lost a pair of Ray Bans and I could really care less. The only thing I'm worried about is my sister getting angry at me for losing it.
Also, I wouldn't give my car up for anything, except for the same car but in better condition. I think it fits me perfectly. I love the low profile of it. It's got a sunroof, AC, heated seats, and even my god damn headlights got wipers. Big ass trunk space. I dream of the day when I can just have a week off to just go on a road trip with my car. It will be epic. I will live in it. I will bathe in it. I will... poop in it. No, nevermind. I will poop next to it. If my car had a soul, I would hug it. I think I'm in love with my car hahahaahahaa. Even if it smells like gas. All the things that make it different make it more unique in my eyes. I guess that goes the same for people if I think about it. I love being different and I love people that are different. I feel like its in my nature to be different.
I secretly love to flaunt my modesty. I'll throw out little lines at people to make them feel bad for wanting random shit. It's kind of bad that I do that. But this is where I wallow. It's for the better in a way. Straying away from brand names lets you personalize yourself more anyway. A better expression of who you are. I want people to get out of wanting brand name stuff. Especially cars and houses. Two of the most bullshit luxury items out there.
I think I'm using the word love too much... I'm feeling feminine. But I do love my car.
I need to start waking up earlier to take advantage of the crisp morning air. Walk my dog and learn to ride my longboard. I will start this next week.
After seeing that I can handle being manager at a restaurant. I feel like I can do anything. I've always felt like my potential was limitless. I just need to find my passion. Where are you passion? Where is my Personal Legend!!!!
Should I patiently wait or should I set forth and take action. I've never been the one to take action.
I feel lucky when I decide to stay up and my stomach starts to hurt like crazy. Waking up to intense stomach pain is not fun. I always roll around hoping it will go away or I will fall asleep. Neither happens. I sit in a daze in the middle of the night with the lights beaming at me.
Every stranger is so interesting when you realize that each of them has such a deep and vast history in their life. I want to go up to every adult I see and ask them if they've found it. If not, I would try to reignite their search. That would be fun. If only my personality didn't put up such barriers of communication. All that stops me from my potential is me. Frustrating when it's in my power but I choose not to.
It's interesting the way I analyze human behavior now. I can see how certain actions create certain responses. I feel like I almost have a power to manipulate people into doing things a lot better than I used to be able to. It's kind of scary. I mostly manipulate people to make them happier which is fun. Of course, when I'm in a shitty mood things just go to hell. I try to exude happiness, energy, and a hard-working aura at work and I can see everyone else working hard. This may either be because I think everyone is working hard, but I think it's because they see me working hard so they subconsciously work hard as well. If I slack, they slack. This is amplified by the fact that I'm the manager and that I am the role model who sets the bar. I consciously try to do things in a way so that it leaves people happy and work in an efficient manner. Inefficiency is one thing that will get me angry. Waste my time, waste the worker's time. My hosts...... I am scared for the busy season because of them. None of them have seen busy. We must prepare for busy season in a war-like manner. It won't be easy. FIGHTING
I think Lucy made me think a lot more than usual. Which in turn makes me more aware of every moment. Simple evidence is in just how much I've been blogging since the summer. I want to pick someone else's brain...
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