mac's cheesy thoughts

///AFTER-SHIFT CONVERSATIONS            So just ended a shift tonight (10/7/15) and we decided to go out for a bite to eat. I was just happy enough that Erin Jenkins (a lesbian, hot one at that ) was coming out to eat with us. Oh the pleasures of eye candy are just stupid. I see why the Halo Effect is so real. Anyway, I just expected it to be a simple night out with decent food and a few too many more than expected drinks. It was not. There were a couple we talked about that definitely rattled my spirit and thoughts.  Talking about dating a best friend, someone you've known your whole life. I'm currently going through this awkward thing of seeing Clara and texting her daily and just sharing music and such. This is cool y'know? She's definitely pretty and if I didn't know her beforehand I would definitely be incredibly infatuated by her. But I do know her and I'm not infatuated. Instead, it's just this weird thing of neither of us admitting it but...

///STOPPED TAKING MY MEDICATION                  (Been a long while. Hopefully this changes and I'm inspired to write here more)               Not too long ago (maybe at most two months) I self-diagnosed myself to taking lamotrigine just once a day instead of the usual twice a day. For some odd reason it seemed that taking it that way worked better for me in terms of drinking alcohol the day after. I felt no difference in effects and it would be cheaper this way. Prescription costs ~$125 a month which is no joke. Taking it once a day effectively halved the price of it. No harm to me and it made perfect sense. Done.                Fast forward Tomorrowworld which was the weekend of 9/25-27 and all my shit got jacked. Whatever, I really didn't mind. (Which I'm still pretty amazed about. I'm glad I don't harbor attachment to physical objects. Sucks that I lost my jo...