mac's cheesy thoughts

How the person one person that will make you happy and have a family with is out there. It's someone you probably don't know. It's even weirder that even if the person you marry is good for you there's most likely an even better match out there. I guess that's why they call it "settle"-ing down with someone. You settle for them? Maybe, maybe not. I don't think my personality helps with meeting new people, but I'm certain I'll find someone one day. I want a family too much not to. Why do I blog? I'm just going to type out loud here. Part of me blogs to see if people keep up with it, but I doubt they do. I don't think I'll ever get a tumblr because it's too public. I'd rather keep my thoughts reserved and as few people as possible. I guess I figure the people who take the time to actually look on my Facebook page to find my blog link are the only people I want to read it anyway. If they like what they see, great. If they don...

1. Cook I wanna cook real food. I'm tired of sandwiches for lunch now thank you. Hopefully I'll be bringing some awesome lunches to school next semester. 2a. Get better at basketball I get frustrated when I play since my handles have improved negligibly over the past few months. I'm never able to follow through on this though. 2b. Workout lower body more I've been neglecting working out legs, so I should learn some exercises and start to jog more. I am a very bad jogger. 3. Blog more and finish entries I have like three half-finished blog entries. It's annoying because I always start writing them before I go to sleep and it gets late so I never finish. I need to go back to those entries and try to finish them. 4. SNOWBOARD Self-explanatory 5a. Sleep I really need to catch up on sleep. Too much work and school is making my body pretty tired. I can start to feel the semester's worth of neglected sleep a lot now. I refuse t...

So, someone I knew recently passed away. I was just thinking, "No way." I wasn't so much sad at the fact that I would never be able to see him again because the last time I saw him was at least a year or two ago. We never really talked much anyway except when we made some funny references to real life and World of Warcraft. I felt more like a feeling of bitterness that someone with so much of their life still ahead of them had to abruptly stop. All of their dreams, people they would never meet, things they couldn't do anymore, things unable to be experienced, and never finding a passion to life. Looking on his Facebook page I could only wonder how many of those people actually had a close relationship with him. How long will it be until they completely forget about him? Does it really matter? I say this now too because I know I'll eventually forget as well. I may remember him from time to time, but how long? I don't know. Such a strange feeling knowing that yo...

to be right here . Right now. With a dog by my side, a blanket, some food, a book, some weed, and chillout music.

I find that if I look at a picture of someone and stare at it, they look different. Even if I've known them for a long time. You start to notice little things about them that make them look different and more unique. Maybe a longer face, certain hairstyle, or ears. Maybe they look weird now or maybe they look normal. Try it some time. It's pretty interesting. Ten days until Hawks game!

Open the door. Five, six, seven, eight Draft Marreese Speights. Nine, ten, eleven, twelve Blowtorch and weld Thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen Get angry and mean I'm bored. Tomorrow I need to call CDA and Athens. Hum

Life is becoming a bottomless pit right now. I think it can't get any worse but it always does. Why is this year such a terrible year? The year 2010 is just out to get me. Not one to be superstitious, but I can't wait until 2011. -edit Man, talk about an emo blog post. I feel like a douchebag. Yeah, you guys can laugh at me. Life is better and I want pizza.

I plan on writing my next post on medication and how it affects me. This will be here for now to remind myself on what to write about. SIDE EFFECTS -bipolar -placebo effect -hair loss, is the medication causing it, is it stress -tremors -recent drowsiness -inability to have short term memory (before after weed) -inability to think clearly at times -inability to speak clearly at times (switching words around, stuttering) Did i have these things before or did the meds cause it? Am i imagining it?

Contemplating on giving Christianity a chance just because I'm so damn stressed these days. I'm so on edge and I just feel bi-polar. The other day I was just pulling out some food to eat from the fridge and the next second I threw the remote across the room. Only a few minutes later after calming myself down did I realize how much of a mood swing that was. Yesterday after work, I was bringing in some groceries and I was just damn pissed at nothing. I was putting all the stuff away so angrily. I need help. Can God help me get A's? I suppose He would help if believing took away some emotional stress. FML. Here's Contemplate by Wale. I miiigghhttt make a food entry next time. Farewell. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KIAFVm7MJo4 does anyone read my entries? i refuse to say blog because it sounds lame

Whenever I tell people that I'm agnostic they always seem to first ask me questions about why and if I hang around long enough they'll eventually ask me to go to church or try to evangelize me. They've all been Christians since I don't know anyone that is any other religion This hasn't happened to me just once but probably about five or so times. So, I came up with an interesting question last night while driving home from work. Would Christians try to convert me if I were Buddhist even though they don't believe in a god as well? I'm thinking they wouldn't because Buddhists have already have something to believe in. Isn't being an agnostic/atheist a belief as well? It is after all, the belief in the non-existence of (or saying that we don't know if there is) God. It's like atheists are free agents and religions are teams trying to recruit them. I'll take my time and pick one if I'm ever compelled to. Until then, leave me alone. I rant...

- Go skydiving - Go to the zoo - Watch Inception/Scott Pilgrim vs. The World/Dinner for Schmucks - Sign up for classes - Get a raise - Do fifty consecutive push-ups - Possibly go to a water park/hiking/beach/fishing - Type up another interesting blog post for Mr. Rhee I will cross these out as they are completed. Update August 12 Shit, I've only done two of these. FAIL

One of the more interesting topics my philosophy professor covered was the subject of evil. Before I go into that however, I'll give a short preface explaining my thoughts. Prior to taking this class one of the main reasons why I so strongly believed that the God people believed in was not all-good was because evil existed. Here's a simple argument for evil. 1. If God were to exist, then that being would be all-powerful, all-knowing, and all-good (all-PKG, for short). 2. If an all-PKG being existed, then there would be no evil. 3. There is evil. TF 4. There is no God. Bam, there it was. That was all the proof I needed that God didn't exist. How could there be so much sorrow, pain, hunger, death, and of course, evil if God was supposed to be all-PKG? On a side note, I also think that this simple statement makes an all-powerful God impossible. Can God create an object so massive that even He can't move it? If He can, He isn't all-powerful, if He ...

I'll start blogging my thoughts since I've always wanted somewhere to keep my random thoughts that I have stashed somewhere. I guess the internet is as good as anything although it could go down. I'll try to speak how I really think instead of trying to make it cool and hip. Maybe I'll share this with people maybe I won't, but for now I'll just pour my mind into this blog. Maybe it'll even help my essay writing ability. Hmmmm, I'll try to use big fancy words to help that objective. I wish there was another word for blogging instead of blog though... Cool it autosaves! No more Facebook notes being deleted by accident. Anyway, onto my first thought I have on religion. I'll probably have a lot of my posts on religion simply because it is such a big part of who I am and has dictated my life a lot. I'll try to be as unbiased as possible but that might be a learning process. I always see people that go on mission trips and from my understanding these...