mac's cheesy thoughts

/// NOSTALGIA I always like to daydream about the past years of childhood and the sense of nostalgia it brings on. The carelessness I lived with and the feeling of freedom to do whatever I wanted to. Video games of that bygone era where all the feels of it can no longer be felt. But, it got me thinking, won't I look back at the age I'm at now and feel nostalgia over games like Overwatch and even Hearthstone in a decade from now? What is nostalgia? Why do I miss what I had when I'm living in a period in which future me will be nostalgic my present? I shouldn't be nostalgic about the past as it inhibits my ability to cherish the Now. It's a weird feeling to know this. [man, words are not coming out of my head as easily as i would like. it's a struggle like pulling a heavy rope out of water. da hell] Most of my memories are of blank nothings the past couple years. Sure, I definitely had some highlights but for the most part nothing happened.

///SHELBY KEEFE Was on my way to 9th Ave Street Food to finally try it out. Walked from the side parking I noticed a lady painting on the street corner. “Hm, that’s pretty cool,” I thought to myself. Figured she was just there painting as it was a nice day out. Got to the food stand, but once again, it was closed. [WHY IS IT NEVER OPENNNNN]  Kind of frustrating really. I even circled the stall to see if there happened to be a back entrance. Walked back and got in the car set to drive off. A moment of clarity/realization. *head thoughts*  I could just drive off and get some food... that would be the comfortable thing to do, wouldn’t it? But I would totally regret not using my camera and meeting this person painting out there. I'm supposedly on a spiritual growth of sorts right now right? If I was, the correct thing would be to meet my discomfort (face fear) and talk to her.  And so, I did.  Grabbed my camera (immediately realized that I wouldn't be abl...

///FRIENDS Just came back from Fox Bros BBQ with the Baker crew + Lucy + Luke. [lucy luke... interesting] I had above average interest in seeing them since it had been so long. Sat in my car just kind of hangry for a bit. Eh, more like hangronnoyed. Waited until I saw Maya walk around the corner with her little satchel. I got a little anxious [i am writing this thing like it's a damn dream journal. let's just get to my thoughts] which seemed normal for me. Popped out and gave her a hug with some small talk. Stood around and then the others started to trickle in. Sat down, ordered our food and beer and then came the awesome vibes.  We talked about what we had upcoming and of course previous trips. Most of the talk was of Baker since we were all from that but man, the energy there was just electric. I felt so comfortable with them and was just taken into a mode of System 1 in the pure moment. I didn't have any worries feelings except elation.  I dunno. Gett...