SHELBY KEEFE

///SHELBY KEEFE
Was on my way to 9th Ave Street Food to finally try it out. Walked from the side parking I noticed a lady painting on the street corner. “Hm, that’s pretty cool,” I thought to myself. Figured she was just there painting as it was a nice day out. Got to the food stand, but once again, it was closed. [WHY IS IT NEVER OPENNNNN] Kind of frustrating really. I even circled the stall to see if there happened to be a back entrance. Walked back and got in the car set to drive off.
A moment of clarity/realization.
*head thoughts* I could just drive off and get some food... that would be the comfortable thing to do, wouldn’t it? But I would totally regret not using my camera and meeting this person painting out there. I'm supposedly on a spiritual growth of sorts right now right? If I was, the correct thing would be to meet my discomfort (face fear) and talk to her. 
And so, I did. 
Grabbed my camera (immediately realized that I wouldn't be able to compose a shot I would like with my 50mm lens...) and started to walk over to her. She was dressed in a timeless way with a hodgepodge of what might be thirftstore clothes. Had a pretty smile to boot. [my heart's gettin' a little fuzzy thinking about her] She had a calm and serene vibe about her that made for an approachable conversation. Said hello and exchanged names. [pleased at myself for how smooth this social interaction was going. gogo robo social. that'd be a funny band name lmao] [dammit, looked at my phone for a minute via System 1 and fucked up my train of thought. gogo System 2] Her name is Shelby Keefe and she was painting for a competition that was due on Friday. The recent inclement weather had held her back from completing on time. I got her permission to take pictures of her while she painted. Couldn't help but wonder if she adjusted her poses and such but I doubt it. Although, maybe her S2 was more active than usual. I know I would be. Anyway, took some pictures and, as expected, I wasn't happy with the composition. Needed a wider angle. She was a nice soul. Grabbed her card from her and the best part...  I GAVE HER A BIG OLLLLL' HUUUGGGGG!!!! Even better was that she replied, "Thank you! I really needed that," with a smile on her face. 
And so, I slipped in and out of someone's universe for a few moments. This feel was fun. I should seek it out some more. A squickie. I dunno what squickie is but it sounds appropriate :D
Composition notes: I should have taken some pictures of her face as well. My thoughts were too muddled/stressed/anxious from being in a one-on-one situation though. [fml chanson d'automne just came on. frisson] I shouldn't be afraid to take what shots I can.
[getting late, i need to write on my fear inducing social interactions. the ones that give me the shakes]

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