mac's cheesy thoughts

LISTENING TO: Jon Hopkins - Open Air Signal (hehehahahoho I like this little addition. frisson!)               So, let's see. Yesterday on 07/27 I went to a small festival with multiple EDM artists. Was super stoked to see Flume. A bit of a disappointment in my opinion but it was still great to hear him live-ish. Short set. I don't really remember much but I remember the Lorde remix and Holdin' On. Needs to come to the Tabernacle for some really good sound. Everyone went to go roll at the show while I just drank and took coke. Not sure how I really feel about coke. I could have done without it I think. I wasn't all that drunk but that could have also been the coke keeping me straight. Didn't have a hangover in the morning so maybe I wasn't drunk. I felt that grogginess of doing drugs afterwards while just sitting a bit zoned out at Hellen's. It wasn't nearly as bad as a molly comedown but it still sucked. If I was drunk I'd still be having fun at t...

            Went backpacking through Panther Creek trail with Clara, Allen, and Ricky. Was originally supposed to be just me and Clara which I was a bit anxious for. I seem to find doing any sort of activity one-on-one a bit too much. The sense that there is only one other conscious soul within proximity to engage in creates tension for me. Maybe it's the same way for others, maybe it isn't, but it sure is for me. Definitely need to start going backpacking more. I have the gear and I have the will (I think.) Just need to go out and do it. Probably need to learn how to set up camp against bears and get some better rain gear and learn how to rainproof my jackets. Anyway, we ended up going with me driving because I like to drive. On the way there, I wasn't 100% sure of the way and started to get nervous that I had gone the wrong way. Pulled it up on my GPS and I was going the right way after mulling it for a while. I'm terrible with directions. TERRIBLE. ...

06/30/2014         So, today I went into work and just kinda chilled. Woke up and played a few games. It's crazy how video games that mean so little in the long-run can create such an enormously stressful situation. Didn't really win any games but was able to practice my Counter-Strike: GO skills. My AWP-ing skills getting a little better. Hopefully it'll translate into the actual ranked games, but I digress.          Went to go workout with Allen and he was late, again. I'm not entirely sure what to do. I should probably tell him to come on time because it does frustrate/aggravate me when I'm just sitting in the parking lot bullshitting until he gets there. Anyway, we got to working out and had a good time but I felt like I wasn't pushing myself as hard as I could have the entire time. Was able to suggest doing the elliptical with Allen and did only one mile. Wasn't a good day. Noticed that while I had done roughly 120 calories in eight m...