mac's cheesy thoughts

///STEM CELLS        Just saw a post on Yahoo! about two scientists that collaborated on stem cell research to win a Nobel Prize. Some quick thoughts since I'm at school right now. As amazing as this research can be beneficial I just fear the long-term prospects of anything with so much benefit. It probably won't be long after until lobbyists and pharmaceutical corporations (why does that word sound so evil?) decide to push for ways of "farming" stem cells. So much fear for how they're going to do that if they plan on using fetus'.... i don't understand how so many philosophers manage to think themselves into the belief that life is shit and a joke. so many are so pessimistic 

i want to do nothing but good. kindness is so easy. so rewarding. warmth is so glowing so soothing. i don't want happiness. happiness chased by many like a drug. happiness is simply a byproduct of being warm, compassionate, kind, and empathic. i want serenity, contentment with myself, inner peace. to just go with the flow. what's done is done, que sera sera, hakuna matata. before i chased happiness like a maddening drug. but now something's different. even saying that i've changed makes it more real. self-fulfilling prophecy. i'm still lonely here and there but not as much. i want to interact with people and show them so much kindness it baffles them. i don't know. the world is such a sad place i have no choice but to. everywhere it's so... cold... robotic... empty. i'm sick of it. i just wish i could figure out a way to bring my family back together................ we'll see where this goes. every day is a blessing life's no joke. it's...