Soul Searching - Step #1
///HAPPINESS STEP 1
Living in a western culture where individuality seems to be hammered down until you're nothing but a cookie-cutter version of a stereotype is hard. This was especially poignant throughout middle school and high school, where kids started to form clicks and learned to start judging others. There was such an immense pressure to always be something you weren't. I thought something was wrong with ME not the culture/bubble of high school I was in. And so, I went through much of high school in a daze of wondering what the hell was going on. I slept through class, had laughs with some friends here and there, but felt out of it most of the time. I could consider these years my lost years. High school was hell to me where it was competition to see who could be the best.
Jump to my first year in college and inside *Daniel Lim's car from my dorm off to somewhere. I don't remember where we were going anymore but that doesn't matter anymore. He was taking some sort of personality test on his phone and wanted me to take it. I thought it was silly but decided to indulge his request. I took a look at the title and it said "Myers Briggs Personality Type Test." Daniel gave me the simple instructions of answering with what I truly felt. Looking back on it, this was pretty hard to do because my ego was still in my way. I had to really concentrate so that it wouldn't skew my answers. I ended up getting a very unique personality type. I started to laugh as I started to read about how this certain type was. While it wasn't a perfect depiction of me, it was pretty damn close. Little things here and there that I know I did and thought made me weird were right there. Suddenly, a little light bulb went off in my head. I WASN'T WEIRD, I WAS JUST DIFFERENT. Simple, yes, I know. But it's the very obvious things that are in front of us every day that can blow our minds the most. So there I was, sitting in a car, music blasting, windows down, air rushing in, and I was having a life-changing moment. I would consider this the catalyst to my journey of soul searching.
///NATURE
If I had to describe myself as an object in Nature, it would be an iceberg. What you see is not what you get. If you look harder, there's much more to me than you could ever imagine. I would get a tattoo of it but it would just look stupid haha. I feel so lucky to be the way I am. I'm not sure how to explain how I've been living but the way I live right now seems refreshing. I would best describe it as a form of apathy. I care, but not really. I don't know how to put it in words yet.
Living in a western culture where individuality seems to be hammered down until you're nothing but a cookie-cutter version of a stereotype is hard. This was especially poignant throughout middle school and high school, where kids started to form clicks and learned to start judging others. There was such an immense pressure to always be something you weren't. I thought something was wrong with ME not the culture/bubble of high school I was in. And so, I went through much of high school in a daze of wondering what the hell was going on. I slept through class, had laughs with some friends here and there, but felt out of it most of the time. I could consider these years my lost years. High school was hell to me where it was competition to see who could be the best.
Jump to my first year in college and inside *Daniel Lim's car from my dorm off to somewhere. I don't remember where we were going anymore but that doesn't matter anymore. He was taking some sort of personality test on his phone and wanted me to take it. I thought it was silly but decided to indulge his request. I took a look at the title and it said "Myers Briggs Personality Type Test." Daniel gave me the simple instructions of answering with what I truly felt. Looking back on it, this was pretty hard to do because my ego was still in my way. I had to really concentrate so that it wouldn't skew my answers. I ended up getting a very unique personality type. I started to laugh as I started to read about how this certain type was. While it wasn't a perfect depiction of me, it was pretty damn close. Little things here and there that I know I did and thought made me weird were right there. Suddenly, a little light bulb went off in my head. I WASN'T WEIRD, I WAS JUST DIFFERENT. Simple, yes, I know. But it's the very obvious things that are in front of us every day that can blow our minds the most. So there I was, sitting in a car, music blasting, windows down, air rushing in, and I was having a life-changing moment. I would consider this the catalyst to my journey of soul searching.
///NATURE
If I had to describe myself as an object in Nature, it would be an iceberg. What you see is not what you get. If you look harder, there's much more to me than you could ever imagine. I would get a tattoo of it but it would just look stupid haha. I feel so lucky to be the way I am. I'm not sure how to explain how I've been living but the way I live right now seems refreshing. I would best describe it as a form of apathy. I care, but not really. I don't know how to put it in words yet.
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