FML

Having the craziest mood swings. On my free days away from work I'm as happy as can be. Time spent with friends seems like the best thing any damn day. Then it's always work the next day. Torture. Hell. Torment. Depression. Hatred. It's tempting to get fucked up to extend my free time, but I digress. Sometimes the grass is too green on the other side. I think I'd be disappointed in my lack of self control if I did. I need to figure something out.

My life is a bit of a mess right now. Extremes of just being happy chilling against being at work. Hopefully sign up for some Touch the Earth trips for me to go on and just relax out in nature. Especially now that it's fall!!! Ahhhh that sounds so nice. I should take some kayaking lessons. Hopefully it'll work with my schedule. Time to sleep to wake up to work.

I think I'm generally happier but sometimes... it's just hard. There isn't a day where I am completely stress free. Well, maybe when I do some sort of drugs but I need to figure out a constant way to be content. Oh, drugs. The things you have done for humanity.

I need to make some drastic changes in my life.

I'm hungry and I smell food. EAT

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