Bedtime Stories
///CLINICAL LSD THERAPY
///PLATO'S CAVE
I feel like a druggy at times, but then I remember that only society would call me so as a pariah. How can I show you the other realities when you won't give it a shot? Plato's Cave. Matrix Cave. Both very interesting. I can feel the frustration of the slave that was freed. Trying to tell my friends that there is such a more beautiful way to see the world. Not only for the time of being under drugs, but for the rest of your life from the lasting imprint and profound appreciation for all you have. Too hard to explain in words. Words won't do it justice. Experience and see I tell them. I feel if it was legal, they would do it. Laws are nothing but words in a book, restricting ourselves from freedom. I'm just afraid that one day, I'll be able to convince into trying to view this new side, and they might get addicted. I want to share these experiences but I'll have to use my best judgement on who would be best able to handle it mentally. This may also be my own selfish desire to share my thoughts with other people. Help them achieve their path to happiness. I understand that people might have a bad view of a drug because of the general consensus is on drugs (bad), but they have to remember that the media portrays only the stereotypes of any culture. Blacks are thugs, Asians are good at math, whites are rich, etc. We know this is completely false from firsthand experience. This goes the same for drug users. Before, I thought Molly was just a raving party dancedancedancedance love drug. This is gonna go nowhere. Drugs are viewed as bad because the media portrays as such. Too much of anything is bad, moderation moderation moderation. Why can't people understand that?
///MONEY≠HAPPINESS
It's hard to remember to try to forget about making money our primary means of achieving happiness and instead finding out what you yourself truly believe will bring you happiness. This is not to say that I could happily live in poverty. I perhaps could with the right person but I would ideally want middle class. What kind of job I'll have, who knows. Money enough to live comfortably without stress from payments and bills. Enough money to be able to be saved on the side for traveling. Eliminate what has been pounded into our minds from commercial advertising says is happiness. Search deep within yourself to find that happiness. Don't try to be what society says is normal. Be yourself and growth will follow.
Sleepy...
Mumford & Sons are good. Should be great music for my soul on my adventure.
My view on alcohol has changed quite a bit. I no longer wish to get shit faced. I see no long-term benefits to it. Just enough to get a buzz.
Hangovers suck. Must remember to keep hydrated.
Monday can't come soon enough.
I don't think I've fallen in love with a movie character more than Natalie Portman's character in Garden State. I can't believe she did the "say and do something incredibly ridiculous to feel unique." I've been doing for as long as I can remember. Sometimes I would say something and feel a hint if fear in case I was the first person to say some sort of demonic spell that would unleash hell. Hahahahar. I'm so weird. OR UNIQUE... New York.
Molly is a hard drug to turn down because every time definitely feels like a top ten moment in life while under the effects. No matter the event, everything is just too happy. That said, I have no depressed feelings when I turn it down or when a planned Molly night ends up not being a Molly night. Strange.
Never felt so giddy to try a drug. It was always anxiety. I feel like a kid before Christmas.
I've stopped writing down my dreams even though I still remember in the mornings.
I had sweet potato fries. It was meh. They were from Midtown Bowling. Did not expect much.
I need to stop telling people I've been experimenting drugs. It seems to trigger an instant reaction of worried feelings from them. Very extreme, very annoying worried feelings. I feel the same way as when people try to evangelize me. Leave me be. I do not push and shove my beliefs on you. Suggest them to me instead of force feeding it.
This new spirituality I feel must be somewhat what it feels like to believe in God. I can almost feel... something out there. LSD should help me understand and get closer. I cannot contain my excitement for this. I felt reborn after shrooms. Now that I've had a year to make sense of some of the spirituality I felt on shrooms, I expect to be able to hone in on acid.
Ignorance is not bliss. Problems that you cannot ignore will arise. Bliss will not ensue.
I'm gonna try to do a post on Garden State and Unthinkable. My "tries" on posting on topics I say I'll try to post on never work. Procrastination.
Stronger feelings of distancing myself from groups where I have to change who I am to fit in.
I may still have very minute afterglow from Molly. Whether this is improved outlook, my excitement for Monday, or afterglow I do not know. I would hope for explanation #1. We shall see.
NBA LOCKOUT??!!?!!! NNNNOOOOOOOOOOO!! ZAZA PLAYING WITH D-WILL!?!! YESSSS
///PLATO'S CAVE
I feel like a druggy at times, but then I remember that only society would call me so as a pariah. How can I show you the other realities when you won't give it a shot? Plato's Cave. Matrix Cave. Both very interesting. I can feel the frustration of the slave that was freed. Trying to tell my friends that there is such a more beautiful way to see the world. Not only for the time of being under drugs, but for the rest of your life from the lasting imprint and profound appreciation for all you have. Too hard to explain in words. Words won't do it justice. Experience and see I tell them. I feel if it was legal, they would do it. Laws are nothing but words in a book, restricting ourselves from freedom. I'm just afraid that one day, I'll be able to convince into trying to view this new side, and they might get addicted. I want to share these experiences but I'll have to use my best judgement on who would be best able to handle it mentally. This may also be my own selfish desire to share my thoughts with other people. Help them achieve their path to happiness. I understand that people might have a bad view of a drug because of the general consensus is on drugs (bad), but they have to remember that the media portrays only the stereotypes of any culture. Blacks are thugs, Asians are good at math, whites are rich, etc. We know this is completely false from firsthand experience. This goes the same for drug users. Before, I thought Molly was just a raving party dancedancedancedance love drug. This is gonna go nowhere. Drugs are viewed as bad because the media portrays as such. Too much of anything is bad, moderation moderation moderation. Why can't people understand that?
///MONEY≠HAPPINESS
It's hard to remember to try to forget about making money our primary means of achieving happiness and instead finding out what you yourself truly believe will bring you happiness. This is not to say that I could happily live in poverty. I perhaps could with the right person but I would ideally want middle class. What kind of job I'll have, who knows. Money enough to live comfortably without stress from payments and bills. Enough money to be able to be saved on the side for traveling. Eliminate what has been pounded into our minds from commercial advertising says is happiness. Search deep within yourself to find that happiness. Don't try to be what society says is normal. Be yourself and growth will follow.
Sleepy...
Mumford & Sons are good. Should be great music for my soul on my adventure.
My view on alcohol has changed quite a bit. I no longer wish to get shit faced. I see no long-term benefits to it. Just enough to get a buzz.
Hangovers suck. Must remember to keep hydrated.
Monday can't come soon enough.
I don't think I've fallen in love with a movie character more than Natalie Portman's character in Garden State. I can't believe she did the "say and do something incredibly ridiculous to feel unique." I've been doing for as long as I can remember. Sometimes I would say something and feel a hint if fear in case I was the first person to say some sort of demonic spell that would unleash hell. Hahahahar. I'm so weird. OR UNIQUE... New York.
Molly is a hard drug to turn down because every time definitely feels like a top ten moment in life while under the effects. No matter the event, everything is just too happy. That said, I have no depressed feelings when I turn it down or when a planned Molly night ends up not being a Molly night. Strange.
Never felt so giddy to try a drug. It was always anxiety. I feel like a kid before Christmas.
I've stopped writing down my dreams even though I still remember in the mornings.
I had sweet potato fries. It was meh. They were from Midtown Bowling. Did not expect much.
I need to stop telling people I've been experimenting drugs. It seems to trigger an instant reaction of worried feelings from them. Very extreme, very annoying worried feelings. I feel the same way as when people try to evangelize me. Leave me be. I do not push and shove my beliefs on you. Suggest them to me instead of force feeding it.
This new spirituality I feel must be somewhat what it feels like to believe in God. I can almost feel... something out there. LSD should help me understand and get closer. I cannot contain my excitement for this. I felt reborn after shrooms. Now that I've had a year to make sense of some of the spirituality I felt on shrooms, I expect to be able to hone in on acid.
Ignorance is not bliss. Problems that you cannot ignore will arise. Bliss will not ensue.
I'm gonna try to do a post on Garden State and Unthinkable. My "tries" on posting on topics I say I'll try to post on never work. Procrastination.
Stronger feelings of distancing myself from groups where I have to change who I am to fit in.
I may still have very minute afterglow from Molly. Whether this is improved outlook, my excitement for Monday, or afterglow I do not know. I would hope for explanation #1. We shall see.
NBA LOCKOUT??!!?!!! NNNNOOOOOOOOOOO!! ZAZA PLAYING WITH D-WILL!?!! YESSSS
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