Self-improvement aspects

I've had a few things REALLY bugging me that I know I'm terrible at. The biggest problem is my procrastination. Some people think theirs is bad but man, mine is fucking terrible. I will wait until the last two hours of a test to even start studying for it at all. Sometimes I don't even study for it because I'm just that lazy. It frustrates the hell out of me that I can't pull a Nike and "Just Do It." I've been trying to mash that into my head and it's been working a little better but man my procrastination is so bad that this is going to be one of the biggest challenges of my life. I just do not know how to be productive. Well, I do, I just can't get myself to get up and do things. I'll have a whole day planned out but in the end I'll do nothing because I got too comfortable sitting in front of my laptop. In my head I'm telling myself, "okay just ten more minutes then I'll head out." It never happens. I suppose some doctors would say I had ADHD and coupled with my procrastination it's not very good. I don't believe in ADHD but... I do get side-tracked and am pretty scatterbrained sometimes. Work has started to help lessen my procrastination in some regards but academia, it's still shit. I have a project and a paper due at the end of break and I don't know what the fuck it's on or what to do. I've also noticed that I've started about... five books and read about thirty to fifty pages in and just stopped for no good reason. I'm not sure whether that means the book isn't good or I just can't follow through on projects. Shit shit shit. I can just feeelll procrastination when it's happening. Gotta try my best to kill it before it grows every time.

I will be psychologist tyvm.

Like I've said before, the worst part about all this is that I am my own worst enemy, and I am quite the formidable foe.

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