k so here i am. current objective shit is that i was drunk and very much afflicted and currently afflicted by allie janho. still hurts myself to even say that but erin jenkins. also a girl i had strong feeling for before but less as much so at this point. jesus i'm fucked up. allie was beautiful and the potential to know what she would become, jesus, is just ridiculous. i just gotta let her go.

i understand how cosmic everything is. i've gotta figure my own shit out and just express through photography. this pain i feel right now is also energy and a reason to fill it.

who else is looking for answer at this age as i am? 

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