///SHROOMS

i constantly judge myself against others even though i say it doesn't matter. without even realizing it. fuck. i see flower of life in the back of my screen. mmm these shrooms are hitting pretty hard. well obviously shrooms are more fun and engaging than acid. fuck my hipster self. hard to breathe though i will say. soooooooooooooooooooo fun to dance on. like x1111100000000 than molly. fuck molly. i can actually collect my thoughts more cohesively than acid. what. kay i enjoy.i am kind of afraid to drink this beer. apprehensive. :))))) this shit is gonna be funny to read later. visuals are different. everything has more depth shrooms are more engaging. should experiment with acid more but the length is a deterrent :(

what is this common motif of narcissism. is a HUGE part of my ego. 

much less closed eyed visuals

"high" starting to come down but wanting more. like a "molly" kind of dose more feeling.

i've already felt this in my microdosing. shit is addictive for me. can i use it to my advantage? my base self is... so cynical. oy. sucks.

would be fun to just dance to meet new people. i'm sure my Self could easily do that. narcicissm again.... fml. FUCK

shrooms must less "universe"ally in terms of visuals

how do i defeat my narcicissm. just accept that my physical being is how it will be. i have no choice on how others see my physical self. let it be. let it be. 

weird feel to want to know a feel of being average looking. right? even when i go out to eat with umma and noona people consistently say, "wowww you have a beautiful family." like. honestly, i wouldn't mind not being noticed. baaaahhhhhhhhhh is this narcicissm again? 

back to dancing? shrooms are A LOT less scary than i thought. a much smaller commitment than acid. the nausea is definitely a thing though but nothing my alcoholic bowels can't manage. 

i think most of the people i know would benefit heavily from a shroom trip. would relieve a lot of stress of the spirit/soul much in the same fashion that a physical massage would. 

oyyyyyyy, i can feel it myself just typing it. it's also insane how much shrooms really do JUST COME IN WAVES.

i really have no experience and AM JUST A HUGE CHARLATAN IN PSYCHEDELICS.

that's pretty sad in a way. i'm just an alcoholic in pretty much all my endeavors and i can see how others would avoid me in that way. 

fuck. well that makes sense.

growth. let's read this later. 

i still hate how alcohol is soooo integral to my... well-being. what a disgusting combination of words to describe my Self. 

shrooms do make it my thoughts much more free flowing in a way that just makes SENSE. 

i can see why people say the comedown of shrooms is so introspective. could i dance more right now? let's see. 

YEP!! man... the way lorin teases those closes. fuck. 

music is much more carnal and less spiritual on shrooms than acid. much easier to dance on shrooms.  THE FEEL ON ACID SHOULD BE much more in the spiritual heart. MEANS MORE ON ACID

shrooms are more in the moment while acid shoudl feel more... spiritually lasting. man, all this is gonna be interesting to read one day.

colors less atmospheric

SHROOMS MAKES ME BE SOOO MUCH MORE REAL WITH MYSELF!!!
just nothing to be ashamed of!!! yeah, just RELEASE MY SOCIAL ANXIETY!!!

we'll see if it'll be that easy tho lmao. 

MICRODOSE WITH KEYS AND GOOAAALLLS!!!!

tired... acid would be so much better to just groove out to. shrooms should be must more dedicated to heavier music i would previously link to rolling on. FUCK MOLLY. no need for it at all. 

my fear of being NORMAL is a much larger underlying factor in my psyche than i realized. oy

INTEGRATE

alcohol reduction should be huge in my SPIRITUAL GROWTH!!!!




okayyyyyf fuck all cohherece before. 

ambien is here

interstomg tje way it maks spimds .

people who enjoy experimental sounds would much enjoy this avenue, 

i am lost but enjoy where i am at now. 
ev

mmmmmmmmm s;;\\

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