something i fear thinking about
///WHAT'S AT THE END
Every now and then I'll think about how big the universe is. How small we are. How everything we do, relatively is pointless. Which is great or terrible depending on your perspective of it. Anyway, I'll start to think how many millions of galaxies there are and how mind-blowing it is.
One day, I had the thought of wondering where it all ends. There has to be a point where it all ends at some point. And yet, I tried to imagine what it was like beyond the end. Can that happen? Is it possible to be outside the end? If you stood at the edge of the end what would the other side look like? I don't know at all. Maybe that's what scares me, just as it scares everyone else. The unknown is scary. I get more scared thinking about this than any other topic, including death.
At least with death I know I have two options. Option A: I die and become fertilizer to the universe and through that my "life" continues. Option B: we do have an entity that surpasses our physical body and we live on in a different dimension in spirit form. Right now I'm fine with those options. Who knows though, I'm sure once I find out I'm very close to my end I'll be scared a bit more. Maybe anxious to see what happens. Not sure why I wait to live every day as if it were my last. Although the eighty or so years I might live seems like a lot of time. Why waste any day? I know this and yet I just cchhiiilll.
So yeah, the edge of the universe thing. What the hell is beyond it? I thought for a second that the edge of our universe is maybe just the big gap between the next universe. That made for shitty logic in my head since that doesn't really make it the end of it all then. Just the edge of the universe. I wanted to know what the edge of ALL physical, dimensional, spiritual, and whatever else ended. It's impossible to imagine. Everything is just theory, theory on which we have no base of information at all to ground in. Aigoooo my head hurts. There's not even much to write about on this topic for me. This is all just about how baffled I am by this question.
Here's a fun sleeping fact I've noticed. You know you're close to falling asleep when you can start a conversation with two characters in your head and your brain will start to take over and create it's own dialogue. Like it would in a dream. Pretty fun.
Things to do in the summer: ball, board, city-hop, read, start my lucid dreaming training again weeee
also, start tagging up the citttyyy!! get a tat? so much i want to do this summer.
Every now and then I'll think about how big the universe is. How small we are. How everything we do, relatively is pointless. Which is great or terrible depending on your perspective of it. Anyway, I'll start to think how many millions of galaxies there are and how mind-blowing it is.
One day, I had the thought of wondering where it all ends. There has to be a point where it all ends at some point. And yet, I tried to imagine what it was like beyond the end. Can that happen? Is it possible to be outside the end? If you stood at the edge of the end what would the other side look like? I don't know at all. Maybe that's what scares me, just as it scares everyone else. The unknown is scary. I get more scared thinking about this than any other topic, including death.
At least with death I know I have two options. Option A: I die and become fertilizer to the universe and through that my "life" continues. Option B: we do have an entity that surpasses our physical body and we live on in a different dimension in spirit form. Right now I'm fine with those options. Who knows though, I'm sure once I find out I'm very close to my end I'll be scared a bit more. Maybe anxious to see what happens. Not sure why I wait to live every day as if it were my last. Although the eighty or so years I might live seems like a lot of time. Why waste any day? I know this and yet I just cchhiiilll.
So yeah, the edge of the universe thing. What the hell is beyond it? I thought for a second that the edge of our universe is maybe just the big gap between the next universe. That made for shitty logic in my head since that doesn't really make it the end of it all then. Just the edge of the universe. I wanted to know what the edge of ALL physical, dimensional, spiritual, and whatever else ended. It's impossible to imagine. Everything is just theory, theory on which we have no base of information at all to ground in. Aigoooo my head hurts. There's not even much to write about on this topic for me. This is all just about how baffled I am by this question.
Here's a fun sleeping fact I've noticed. You know you're close to falling asleep when you can start a conversation with two characters in your head and your brain will start to take over and create it's own dialogue. Like it would in a dream. Pretty fun.
Things to do in the summer: ball, board, city-hop, read, start my lucid dreaming training again weeee
also, start tagging up the citttyyy!! get a tat? so much i want to do this summer.
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