mac's cheesy thoughts

be the kindness in the world. appreciate new cultures but don't let them define you. assimilate it. when you help a total stranger they know nothing about you. you are simply a character to them that came out of the wild world to come and help them. you may not see yourself as an 'angel' or a soldier of God watching over them. that is how ripple effects of kindness spread and seeds are planted in others. because they KNOW just how awesome it feels and they will psychologically want to give that to someone else because it is too great to keep for themselves. so uplifting. so kind. flex your mental muscles, work them out as much as you do your physical. you can only grow spiritually when your most tangible body and mind and able to be mended by your will. i see HUGE similarities between the yearly Passion gathering and music festivals all around the world. i would have to guess a lot of people like myself only go to one music festival a year and for this case i'm ...

tonight i go to flux pavilion. i'm kinda nervous about taking molly for the first time in quite a while. i almost just kinda wanna get drunk and have fun. less talking to be done, less hangover, but it is less talking. i'm not really sure what i want. maybe i'll just drink... fuck i dunno i guess i'll have to see once i get there. i got my earplugs ready to go so i won't blast my ears to deaf. kinda dreading seeing all the people there... 4000 is crazy. so many are gonna be fucked up outta this world. i just hope to meet some interesting people. it'll be tough to tell who's bein real and who's just on mollys. hrrrmmmmmmmmm fuh starting to think that i'll only be best off if i go see the world alone. i hate feeling tied down or being held back. it's a pretty selfish perspective in a sense but i think it's the only way i'll really be able to become who i want to be. makes sense. am i starting to actually understand what being alone is an...

working out releases endorphins which gives me a little bit of an elevated mood. and happy people come up with good ideas because they are confident that their actions will follow through. so put and them together and my brain comes up with some interesting thoughts. some people will never see any piece of modern technology in their whole lives. others will never see a wild animal in their whole lives. i'd say the latter is sadder. i can't tell whether my moodiness is from being normal after being off depakote (a mood stabilizer) or from this new keppra which apparently can cause moodiness. maybe it's a combination. i'm not sure. some new things i'm gonna try to do:                  compliment people                  write in my dream journal more             ...