mac's cheesy thoughts

///BEING SINGLE (a bit tipsy and a bit high)            So here I am just jamming out to dubstep at three in the morning (2:59 A.M.) and having a good time about it. Got me wondering if I really do need (well I guess I've already done known for a while I don't) a girlfriend. I am pretty content with who I am and knowing that I need to grow for myself as a person before I pursue any relationship . I perhaps am starting to understand it as well. This might mark the beginning of me starting to be ready for a relationship. But not at all yet. I wouldn't be able to think that someone could love me as I am even though I know someone would. ( Just got lost into Zeds Dead- Rude Boy for a good minute.)  I want to get a good career and security before I do anything really. "I think you have commitment issues," she said. I believe it. Something about me mayne just can't do it.               I am an ever incre...

///PHOTOGRAPHY                         (Might be the first time I blogged high. Shit, it's been almost three months since I've wrote in this thing. Fuuckkk. Sorry for ignoring you Bloggy). I wonder what I enjoy about photography so much. It's not exactly my "creative outlet." Sure, people think it's cool and awesome but what's the end to it? Kind of like psychology. It's fun yeah, but I dunno if I can go through with it. (This could just be me being just being high. HIGH TIMES WOOP WOOP! Seems I can only be energetic in my head when I'm high). Maybe I just don't have the eye for it enough to become my thing. I probably could once I behavior myself not to give a fuck and find the eye for a good posed shot. It's still a beautiful medium. (Post-high) Too much photography is the same. I need... I always say I need to learn new skills, i.e. Photoshop, but it's ridiculous how lazy about learning I'm getting. FUCKFUCKFUCK ...