mac's cheesy thoughts

///PHOTOGRAPHY                         (Might be the first time I blogged high. Shit, it's been almost three months since I've wrote in this thing. Fuuckkk. Sorry for ignoring you Bloggy). I wonder what I enjoy about photography so much. It's not exactly my "creative outlet." Sure, people think it's cool and awesome but what's the end to it? Kind of like psychology. It's fun yeah, but I dunno if I can go through with it. (This could just be me being just being high. HIGH TIMES WOOP WOOP! Seems I can only be energetic in my head when I'm high). Maybe I just don't have the eye for it enough to become my thing. I probably could once I behavior myself not to give a fuck and find the eye for a good posed shot. It's still a beautiful medium. (Post-high) Too much photography is the same. I need... I always say I need to learn new skills, i.e. Photoshop, but it's ridiculous how lazy about learning I'm getting. FUCKFUCKFUCK ...

///PSYCHOLOGY GENESIS                    I had a pull a while ago towards changing my major to something else. I was an economics major just 'cuz then I switched over to psychology. Guess I felt it was a good medium from philosophy and my curiosity of the world. What was my main reason for taking psychology? I'm not really sure. Probably had to do with me wanting to learn how to not be so socially awkward. Which worked, but I'm still a bit of a fucking weirdo except now, I'm comfortable being a complete fucking weirdo. Kinda figured myself out and met other people making me comfortable around others. They accept me and I accept them. Win-win. [wow i drank this beer super fast. so much for writing a whole entry sipping on it] I still think, actually I know, I strike people as odd. I have a great face to start off with that probably seems like a normal guy that might just be a little extra nice. THEN. THEN it gets funny. I make my odd sou...