mac's cheesy thoughts

LISTENING TO: Jon Hopkins - Open Air Signal (hehehahahoho I like this little addition. frisson!)               So, let's see. Yesterday on 07/27 I went to a small festival with multiple EDM artists. Was super stoked to see Flume. A bit of a disappointment in my opinion but it was still great to hear him live-ish. Short set. I don't really remember much but I remember the Lorde remix and Holdin' On. Needs to come to the Tabernacle for some really good sound. Everyone went to go roll at the show while I just drank and took coke. Not sure how I really feel about coke. I could have done without it I think. I wasn't all that drunk but that could have also been the coke keeping me straight. Didn't have a hangover in the morning so maybe I wasn't drunk. I felt that grogginess of doing drugs afterwards while just sitting a bit zoned out at Hellen's. It wasn't nearly as bad as a molly comedown but it still sucked. If I was drunk I'd still be having fun at t...

///DREAM Ummmmm, something about something. Janos was in it. We... uhhhh yeah I woke up twelve hours ago. This isn't happening. ///DRUGS So, I just got back from working out and recently started taking a pre-workout supplement. I didn't really feel much at first but once I started to work out I could feel the difference. I didn't really feel energized but rather more focused on just pushing myself to the limit. It was a lot easier to get myself to cross that line of stopping until the next set and pushing myself until I couldn't do one more. This is how I should be working out but I was never focused enough to do it. It didn't make me feel nearly a cracked out but like I said just really focused on the workout task on hand. I suppose this would be similar to what Adderall might feel like? I'll keep on using it cuz I think it'll get me some results quick. Must, get, better, at, basketball. Focus focus focus. I don't like drinking coffee and Red Bu...

Well weekend I think helped me sort some shit out. I think I really got it figured out this time. Lots of thinking. And so I open my blog again to... the one for sure, and maybe one other reader out there. I can't write to myself. It's weird. It's much easier to write as if I'm explaining something to someone. In my head it just works better. Like I'm giving a speech. I don't know it's weird. Maybe you guys understand. It's like how Charlie in "Wallflower" had to write letters. Diaries are too private. I like knowing that my writing will be read. I'm glad I can entertain some people's lives with all the thoughts that go through my head. I wish I could find someone to debate with. An argument for arguing sake. No harm, no foul. Just to see who has the stronger theory by word. I want to talk to someone who I can talk to about "Wallflower." Funny how I don't see the need to take out "who I can talk to." The "wa...

///LUCY TRIP DOS So, I actually felt the Lucy this time and I just wanted to chill out and listen to music which I was able to do. Would seem that lines that make our senses unique, blur under the effects of LSD. The one most prevalent was being able to see sounds in the form of colors and movements. It was interesting and made every song an adventure. The best kinds are really happy artists like Donora who has a lot of upbeat music. Could imagine myself becoming one with the world in a state of bliss. For some reason I imagined two quarter-circles connecting as my symbol of spirituality. Maybe I'll draw it later. Pink Floyd was pretty amazing too. Every song seemed to create a new adventure. At one point the music got really awe-inspiring and there was a plane or something in the sky and I saw like fireworks go off around it as I imagined it was blasting off into another world. I knew it wasn't real fireworks but I didn't care, just let my imagination run wild. In a Shpong...

"SWIM"- (S)omeone (W)ho (I)sn't (M)e ///MDMA So, SWIM has been doing a lot of research on Molly and LSD recently and these two seem to be the "safest" drugs to confront problems, expand SWIM's mind, and to grow spiritually the most with. SWIM has been finding that most people simply don't use these times of altered thought to gain benefits afterwards. While it is fun to simply be fucked up on it and enjoy the little effects, laughter, and feeling, to me, the best part of SWIM's little adventures outside normal thought is being able to think differently. It brings such a clarity to SWIM's normally jumbled thoughts. SWIM's mind is feels like a scattered bunch of thoughts here and there and when he was on Molly SWIM was able to pinpoint exactly how SWIM truly felt, and believed on certain thoughts. It was like a magnet that just collected all of SWIM's thoughts on the topic and let SWIM dissect is piece by piece. The feeling of all communica...

///LUCID DREAM Today, we have a special dream. That dream is a lucid dream. Finally figured out a way to do this. It's called the WILD technique and it's pretty simple. I'll try practicing this from now on. I was taking a nap during the afternoon and I usually don't like to take naps because I get sleep paralysis. Sometimes freaks me out, other times I just sleep right through it. Today I got sleep paralysis and it was freaky. It felt like a goblin was behind me and breathing down my neck. I did my little trick where I shake my fingers and toes until the paralysis wears off and returned to sleep laying on my back. From here, I unknowingly entered a lucid dream. I'm not too sure on what went on but I do know I was able to bring up Nathalie Portman. I imagined her and bam she was right there. It was pretty hard to control the dream but I just did the thing I know best when I lucid dream, fly. I tried to remember Bonnaroo and flew myself to the destination. Everything ...